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Salam aleikum♡♡♡

This summer has been one of amazing one i went to Stockholm with flix buss very cheap it took 7 hours but I satt längs back and slept too.

It was very nice i arrived nobody mett me. My friend was at someone wedding. And I mett with Pakistans but first I are sushi it was sooo good i was happy that I picked amazing restourant. Pakistans drove me to many beutiful places and shower me teallt nice place from where you can see hela Stockholm basically.it got dark and at almost 12 pm i was dropped almost whole night i spend by myself outside i called my friend and she still was at the wedding. I felt so bad and scared alhamdulilah nothing happened to me . I was talking to my bestie affi and she was very converned for mw being outside she called our friend gracie and gracie also waited for me at her plce poor girl disnt sleep but i could not find i go go yo her there were many trains and stuff but i dont know exactly directions. I went with train to rinkeby so my another friwnd my yemeni friend was waiting for me making yemeni dish i was looking for her place long time and she called and told me on the phone dorections and I fed up from not finding so i went to playground and I slept on bench it got lighter quickly becouse it is summer in sweden.. was very making sleep she was calling bevouse of me she didn't sleepni for someoreadon just went to trainsttion and went back to stockholncity i went i was alone i  whole town it was 5in the morning still early it was so beutiful and peacefull alone in a bug city  i went around i went woth my nordic wellness card to gym and there i slept in sauna becouse I froze at night so much sauna was off it was also cold and hard three bench. But at least i hit lyself some sleep. Also i went out and explored more of the city i felt amazing. I got hungry i went to espresso house i att there i took late too.

And thn eelaf was calling not stop and I at the end decided to nswer herbi told her everything was good and that I slept at my friends house when I actually spent whole night alone roaming in the city that was köpt at sekreterare to everyone. Soooo i went go hemköp bouth some deliciousw things and flower and strawberriez and went to her her sweet mom was there and I got to know her bestie and we are at mc and drove to different places they put on music i sitt behind.

Anyway party was good we had fun I met my friend who is my Sister when I mett her i felt something in my stomach as if she is my real Sister and I missed her i felt almost butterlied i think i have genuin feelings foe her.

Anwyas it was great i met farande and many other people from  boden.

Food was also great and after that I took training home the next morning it was maizing. Training went to göteborg in only 3 housärs i bougt gift for my sis braclett ans earrings i had left 500 kr. I went even to her graduation party we had good meal and my kids were happy yo see mee and same.  I was all the time broken i had money only to pay the Bills and social didn't give me money so it felt very devastating and after that my uncle came yo visit us from america i was really happy to see him and his wife we talked sooo much i did hijama on them both and we massage them and made nice breakfast they wanted sea food but we could not find sea food at the store. Anyway they stayed only for 3 days they gave our kids 100 dollars.and had them in my bag and then i foegot my perse and someone took all the money even one kronors from there but alhamdulilah all other important stuff were inside. 

I felt like this summer i didn't want to spend in sweden i was feed up. And I knew allah is Karim he is generouse anf Almighty. I spoke to my bestie that im not spending tjis summer in sweden. 

But I knew with money i had that time I could not affird no travel.

Anyway my umcles son my kusin was getting married and his 2 kids needed someone to stay with so i said all the others could go to wedding i would be in USA talking care of my nephes and I did alhamdulilah they bought me tickets i did natrium pappers and I did visa and I took only to each of uss backpacka we went to uncertainty time and that is why they stoped my at the airport and asked questions the guy was handsome i like him he let me go after hearing my answers. Amin vare and mett us it was crazy nice. 

Anyway in july char marketing meddelade me about how he regretted leasing me bla bla i fell for it i cried and felt amotional we started talking he called me all the time and he was so sweet and cute our conditions was so strong i felt so amazing and in love with him. He was talking about second wifenall the time. And Anyway i was not sure about him in the beghining but when I showed him to my cousin my cousin told me take someone else tjis guy is hoing yo leave younin the future becouse you hav kids and so on. Anyway wow everybody yold me that when I showed them char marketing. And even Lilly eight year old girl said it. I was showed one day my sis looken me in the eyes and said Giiirl!! He is BUSLHITYING YOU! I FWLT IT IN MY HEART LIKE I WAS SO SCARED. to get Hurt again i knew i had tjis atacjment yo him all I wanted for my future is to be with hum by myside.. I guld not believe but even my dad told me to block him firas he said ok but them hide said he was seeing bad drwms and warnings that he felt so i had to block him.

I didn't block him everywhere . But he didnt massage me abytjing he gladlynt blocket me everywhere.

I saw dream that I went to meet him on some red and darkblue training and I saw bison when she was little and I mett mersiha she yook me to her room there she had belt she told me he is not there foe you or somwtjing like this.i went only to meet him but he was nowhere.

Anyway than i saw another dream my family and I traveling to this city and I went outside to look foe him i saw red bussen but I didn't know way to him. And another dream that I saw was that I was outside alone it was dark and I run ho find his house and when I thought i found it I opened door and it was ruined inside i got scared like I had nowhere to go and find safe place.

 

But one dröm that I saw long time ago was that someone telling me he is coming here to my place so i had to make this place more beutiful or clean. So I always thought about it like I saw him in ly kitchen. I always had hope it was true and that we will be toyägether.

But when ot is menat to be ususly it goes different.Usualy at least other people qould not tell me yhat when they look at him they feel like he does not deserve me or that he will leave me which is one of my fear which i already face twice looollll

Just recenrly I lost feelings foe him I also tried not to look at the picture of us  of him ♡♡♡

Anyway he is so handsome and I loved his apearance it's like I loved every atom of his body and I still wish him all the best may Allah guid him protect him

But what if he is energi vampire what is he is shayta  AAN IN HUMAN FORM HE HIMSELF SPOKE TO MW ABOUT PEOPLE LIKE THIS AND HE WAS THIS TYPE WITH ME.

WHY CURRUPTING BUT ALSO I DO BELIEVE I SHOULD BE MORE RELIGIOUSE I SJOULD SAY NO WE DONT TALK UNYILL ITS SERUOUSE WE DONT HALK JUST US 2 THERE HQVE TO BE THIRD PERSON. BEVOUSE I FID CARE I WAS SCARED SHAYTAN WILL COME IN BETWEEN US AND MY SISTER WARNED ME ABOUT IT WHY WAS NOT BRAVE ENOUGH TO DO IT HE EOULD UNDERSTAND IM SURE